Is it possible to die of loneliness?
The only human contact I have is at work, and the salespeople at the mall.
Oh, and occasionally when I talk to my parents..
I wish that I had friends. There are so many things that I want to do, but it’s not as fun to do it alone. Instead, I go to the mall and spend all of my money on things that I may or may not need. I guess I’m just trying to fill the void.
I was in a training course last weekend, and we were discussing development and the importance of friendships. The instructor said, “Why must we ensure that children make friends? I mean, we all have friends, but what might cause children to struggle with this process.”
I felt like such an outcast. Everyone was telling their “friends stories” and I just sat there trying to avoid being called on. When it got down to the last few people, I left the room and went to the washroom. What would I have said if I had been called on?
I have never admitted out loud that I don’t have friends. Once I say it, it becomes true. I know it is true, but I really wish it weren’t!
My mother said something interesting to me a couple of weeks ago. We were discussing my plans for the next couple of terms, and she noticed that my school/work schedule was quite heavy. She said, “I just don’t want you to waste away your 20’s. It is important to work hard, but I want to make sure that you are still able to spend time and go out with your friends.”
How do I tell my mother that I have no friends? Do I tell her?
A girl in my faculty at Uni just got married. Her wedding party was people she has been friends with all through University. What if I were to get married - there would be no one there (there also would be no groom…).
Worse - what about graduation? I will have no one to share it with..
I have no one to share anything with…
